Keyboard jamming.
Unfortunately I don't feel any better.
I try to be happy, I talk it up a lot, I try to spin things around and convince myself that I'm okay, but in reality... I'm pretty sure I'm still a wreck on the inside.
The worst thing about it is that I don't know what to do. I can't ignore it, I can't put it behind me, vengeance is not enough.
As much as I HATE to admit this, what I think it ultimately boils down to is that I'm lonely.
I don't want to be by myself anymore, but at the same time, I'm picky as FUCK.
I want the next one to last. Is that such a hard thing to ask for?
Oh dear, this is starting to sound like a bad chick flick.