The more and more I think about it and the closer it gets to the date, the less I want to go to prom. Prom has never been a really big thing to me. Sure, it's nice, it would be fun, all my friends are going, it's the biggest event in highschool, the "night to remember", but honestly, it's just a jazzed up version of semi formal. It's seriously over rated ... And expensive.
 
Just the ticket to go to prom is anywhere from $70 - $90. Then there's the addition costs of dress, transportation, hair and afterparty. Now since it's me, hair and afterparty can be ruled out, so there's dress and transportation left to finance. Where the heck am I going to get the money for those? I always feel guilty asking my parents for money to finance these things, because I know that a lot of cash already goes to me for so many other things. I know for a fact that my mother would love it if I just wore one of sister's old prom dresses. She's already suggested it 20-odd times after her inital statement of "ai, prom dresses are ridiculously expensive. They're not worth it, you'll wear it once then never again. That's what happened with your sisters' dresses." Everytime she does that, it makes me feel more and more guilty and unhappy. So for all you skeptics out there, being the youngest of 3 daughters has it's downfalls too.

Then, there's this notion that you HAVE to have a date for prom. I never really minded going solo ... Until all my friends started making a big deal out of it and finding dates. Honestly, I still don't understand this need for a date. But now that everyone has, or is looking for one, I just feel awkward. As one of my friends kindly explained to me, "you can't go solo! Only fat chicks go solo!" So what now? I guess I'm a fat chick. Eh, it fits. Maybe I should stop being so complicated and just accept that one offer (if it's still open) and be done with. Then I won't be the odd one out. "one of these things is not like the other!" (8)

What's pissing me off the most though is how much I'm worrying about prom. There is so much more out there than prom. I think I just won't go.