Is it possible to develop an irrational fear of your own race? Cause I think I have.
I still love Chinese people and the culture, but I don't think I can be surrounded by a large group of them anymore.
I can still stand my Scout Group and Chinese restaurants because I'm already accustomed to those, but I don't think I would be able to handle anything new.

A friend of mine invited me to take part in a Teen Conference over the March break, but I blatantly refused. Why? Because everyone at the conference would be Asian. Just thinking about being surround by all those Asian youth gave me the heebe geebes. I don't think that's a good thing. 

Now that I think about it, even MCBCSL, the 95% asian softball league that I've been a part of for the past three summers, is scaring me. I'm currently re-evaluating my decision to join this year.

I've definitely become too white-washed for my own good.
Is there a way to reverse this phobia?